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Thoughts about changing, life, and whatever comes to mind.

Category: Blog

  • december & 2015 year in review

    I started this blog on December 28th last year, motivate solely by the Seth Godin book “What to do when it’s your turn”.

    It was a way for me to force myself to write constantly every day in a language that wasn’t my own.

    Now, one year after, I know that I missed many days out of the 365 available.
    The total post count for this blog right now is around 260, so all in all I missed about 100 days. 24 of which they were the days I was in japan.

    That said, it all worked very well.
    The more time it passed, the more it was easy for me to write every single day, even though sometimes I couldn’t get some “complex” thoughts written.

    What surely fascinated me was the habit itself.
    I was quite sure that to build an habit you needed something like one month of continuity but this wasn’t the case. In fact it took much more time to become accustomed to the fact that I needed to write every day.

    So, how did it go? Let’s see

    December was a fast month. It just flew by.
    Many of the thoughts in it are small, concise, fast.
    I started a new diet (which I’m inconsistent in doing, but I hope to fix it in the upcoming days) and I renewed my intention to meditate more every day.

    It was also a hard month, full of stress and joyful events.
    The posts that I loved the most about it were

    But what about 2015?

    Many thins happened, and while I can’t do a deep list of the posts I wrote, there were many things that changed me in a lot of aspects

    • I started working part time (28hrs/week)
    • I opened up a company, Radici Toscane
    • I went to a wedding in Oklahoma, met beautiful people in San Francisco
    • I went to Japan
    • I started writing every single day in english
    • I started exercising constantly with calistetics.
    • Tried various breakfasts
    • Did a 30 day -no sugar- experiment
    • Started writing articles in my blog Give Me The Chills and a couple were also quite popular.
    • Learned new technologies (rethinkdb above everything else)
    • I started wanting to contribute to opensource ,but failed (at least for now)
    • With my GF we opened up a shared bank account and started searching for a house

    2015 was such a wonderful year.
    Full of difficult moments but still also filled with emotions.

    I started learning to be more honest, to put work in front of me.
    There is still more to be done, and I guess that’s the path for 2016, move forward again.

  • today is when you think about the past and the future

    It’s strange, but we all think about past and future the last/first day of the year.

    We probably see this as a closing for our past and an opening for our future, yet we often fail to change something.
    Many, many things stay the same.

    It’s a common thing, and I believe we should focus on the present instead. Just on today.
    It’s ok to plan for the future so we can be organized, but we have to live the present fully to deeply understand what’s coming after.

    Today, as one of my last “2015” actions, I donated blood to help hostpitals.
    It was great, although I’m a small guy so it impacts a lot in the rest of my day, but still I think it’s a great and easy way to help people.

     

  • be honest in how you live and what you do

    Yesterday I did something wrong, hurting people I love.

    I did that, without knowing the outcome of my actions, and without any evil intent.
    So, even though I was “innocent” I apologized.

    I apologized because I know how it feels to be betrayed.
    I know how it feels to lose trust in a person.
    I know how it feels to be on the other side.

    I apologized because I know how much it hurts inside and how much it eats you, piece by piece.
    Rage, fear, both eat your mind slowly, they consume you, until you become a different person.

    It’s not about who was right or wrong, it’s about who felt bad, who got hurt and who not.

    It’s stupid to not apologize just because you’re right. You’re apologizing for a greater good, for the health of other people, people you love.

    So why not try your best?

  • even if you’re good you can hurt people

    But the conclusion shouldn’t be to not be good.

    We need to be good, to inspire good actions. And even though our action were genuine, honest, true to our self, we need to act good anyway, even when we do it wrong.

    Something will go wrong (I just experienced this because I naively behave without considering other people’s feeling), and our instinct will tell us “oh, it will be easier if you aren’t good” but that isn’t true. It’s our mind searching for shortcuts.

    We can do it, it’s hard, but between good people we can do a lot.

  • the more I grow, the more I like table games

    It’s a strange thing, but the more I’m growing the more I appreciate the beauty and the simplicity of table games.

    From the sophisticated to the simple ones, I just love them.

    It’s probably because they keep us together, they let us interact in a human way and are a beautiful way to kill time.